TOUCHDOWN!: October 2009

Friday, October 30

THANKS KJ

KJ i thank you so much that you always cheer me up =] and that was the nicest thing any1 has ever done to me since i came to high school..<33 All the best in your studies and getting over that girl Or get her back =] God Bless You~

Thursday, October 29

a Bird inside a tiny Cage

early in the morning when i just woke up 6:41am. "It's friday" i thought to myself. I thought maybe my parents could at least let me go a little, let me go online. but NO!!!!!!!! only saturday and sundays im allowed to go on the computer!! let me check my schedue

SATURDAY
morning-bathe dog
aftnoon- music workshop
night - dinner outside

SUNDAY
morning - church
aftnoon - cousin house
evening - badminton
night - dinner outside

I AM SOOOO PACKED UP I DONT EVEN HAVE TIME TO PLAY!!!!!!! i cried. IT SUCKS TO BE IN A FAMILY THAT LOCKS YOU UP FROM THE WORLD!!!!!!!!! HELLO PEOPLE?!?!?!?!?! im 15!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! is it really thaaaaaaaaat difficult to let me go JUST A LITTLE BIT?! no computer, no fone, nt allowed to go anywhere. which teen can survive this TORTURE!? I HATE MY PARENTs!!!!!!!!!!!! seriously, they dont understand me. THEY NEED TO KNOW THAT THE PAST AND THE FUTURE ARE DIFFERENT! AND PEOPLE SHOULDN'T LOOK AT THE PAST BECAUSE IT HAS ALREADY GONE! PEOPLE SHOULD LOOK FORWARD TO THE FUTURE AND ACT LIKE IT!

i have already been sent for counseling by my parents. excuse me? they are the ones who never respect me! and counseling about my parents sucks okay..=.= just because of the stuupid couselor, she doesnt even know how to counsel.. she made me hug my mother n everything. THEY LOVE ME? I DARELY BLOG IT OUT LOUD! IF THEY LOVE ME THEY WON'T HURT ME LIKE I DO NOW!

They expect me to follow everything they say, and in just one call! =.= you'll see everywhere people say they're "striving to be good parents" but me?! do they ever think of their child's feelings? you can be good. but not as torture as this! they think im a toy because im under them=.= i've nvr ever felt so sad about my parents before!

now, im somebody with nothing at all! all i do is on the radio and stare at the ceiling until im tired i go to slp. can i just tell me parents that I HATE THEM?

Monday, October 26

Feeling The Fire

There is a feeling inside me. Feeling of a fire inside you rushing in a high pressure.. you feel high people!! feel like jumping around like a person without worries~! so happy right?^^

But then, even im feeling so happy n light..at the same time...problems keep coming and coming one after another.. CAN THEY EVER STOP!? i had enough before exams..and now its over! I PROMISE MYSELF NT TO GET ANYTHING AFFECT ME!!!well,at least i hope..>.<

i have great friends you know...but some of them really..zzzzzzz they are just too much...but so far it's okay.. btr then before exams..feel so blessed^^ and this is the 1st time im complementing Lakshmi...she really inspires me..she's really good in socializing. i LOOVE to talk and make friends..just pray that i wont be afraid of the society^^ now a days, im soooooooo into maple...too addicted...>.<

i seriously dont understand what's with girls so bothered with guys..well,they dont bother me..and i think hanging out with them is fun..all the hang out with is just girls girls n girls!soon they'll marry a girl n become a less bian..=.= hope they'll just change..

to be honest, i hate sexist..i really hope the "new frends" i make nxt year are nt racist..=.=